hi guys, thankyou so much for your posts of support - I am in bits today, I don't really know what I am doing and I can't help myself but keep getting upset.
I have never lost a cat before, and Lucas was a member of our family - me and Phil are absolutely in pieces as it was such a shock and he will be sorely missed.
I broke down when I woke up this morning and saw his photo on the wall and also would normally pop into his room in the morning to say hello but I really can't bear to even look at his bedroom door right now never mind go in there for anything. It is all I can do to not be permanently crying today.
I drove to work and was crying in the car, I heard that Delilah song on the radio and it sounds stupid but we have been talking non stop about our holiday to new york recently and I have been a bit obsessed with it - I heard that line 'times square cant shine as bright as you' and it set me off crying again.
I am training today (on morning break) and it must be obvious to my students that I am upset, I am glad they are working on computers most of the time as they are not facing me then and I have had watery eyes all morning - my eyes are all red too.
Lucas was the kindest, sweetest loveliest cat anyone could ever hope to meet - he didn't deserve the life he had, and he definitely did not deserve it to be cut short and so suddenly. Those of you who met him (Lyn, Susanne, Ems) will know how lovely he was, and he meant so much to me, Phil and DD, anyone who met him fell in love with him. He was such a charmer, he could definitely give "the look" and he was a cat who should have had a life of being pampered and looked after - he definitely enjoyed the finer things (cat milk, posh food)
I am just glad that he had a good end and that we were the ones lucky enough to share his last months with him.
I have been looking for a rainbow today - I whispered to his picture this morning that I want a rainbow to know he got to the bridge okay. I also said I miss him and that I am sorry, and that I love him so much.
I thought on the way to work this morning that I hope Charlie meets him at the bridge. Its all I can hope right now that I will see him again there.
Again, thank you for your messages and those who sent PM's - I will reply when I can
RIP my poor baby boy
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