No its fine, i shouldnt have stoped the post, is just one hour a go i was saying he is well and even put on weight and then the call came, and was just too much.
I knew the day i took him to my own vet in November , its pancreas or intestine cancer , the signs were so much like DD,loosing weight and being sick and other signs i just cant think now.
IT's just no matter how much you prepare yourself and try to be logical and say oh he had a good life and all the rest, just doesnt work, i think i am not making sense.
Thankyou every one , it means a lot, your kind words.