Hamish just managed to get up this morning, he had a drink" not a big one " Used his litter tray for a wee. and proceeded to head for his
route to get up on the window sill, via the tv stand and tv, but he is really unsteady on his feet, I lifted him onto window sill, and stood
with him, till he decided it was time to come down. I tried to give him some more Beef, He managed a very small piece, but went back
to spitting out the rest and then just looking at it.. I tried him with eggs 2 days ago, but wouldn't touch them..
the vet didn't tell me, and I didn't ask if he had ulsers or just bad teeth, she did show me his gums, and they were pretty discoloured
and red. Ill ask her tomorrow..
I have also been thinking that if his mouth was ok would he be fairing better??, HE Does want to eat, But I think the pain is stopping him
same goes for the drinking, he has had about 5 drinks today, but it is hard to see how much he is taking in, as he is not drinking normally
He just sticks his tounge out not even half way, and there is a lot of dribbling, then he just goes back to his pillow and lie's with his head
down. It Broke my heart today, when I was Clapping him, he Lifted his leg so I could rub his belly, He always Loved that. But I have been
Handling him as though he is made of Glass, So the rubbed Belly was a short gentle one.
I did think about the Syringe feeding but with his mouth being so sore, I dont want to hurt him, he has never liked his chin touched.
Hamish was supposed to go back to the vets tomorrow, But I think I will get the vet to come here, and we'll see what she is saying..
I have been thinking about the Past a lot today, I've had Hamish since I was 21, and in the bad times!! He's Always been there for me..
Breakups with girlfriends, Loss of Grandparents and family, when I've been unwell. etc.. He was always there to Comfort me..
Now I find Myself with this Decision " of being without him " I can Feel The Depression setting in. I know I Will still have Misty to help me
through this, But then That is another thing If The Worst Comes to the Worst " Do I show Hamish to Misty ??" I have been looking on
the internet to see what is best, and all I have found is that it is up to yourself (doesn't help much) I also read that some companions
also mourn the loss and stop eating. MY gut Feeling is NOT to let Misty see Hamish.
And I feel a bit pressured into making a decision about Hamish, because of work, they still haven't phoned me, but I got an e-mail yesterday
and basically I'm just waiting for the call to go. If I go Who will Look after Hamish??, and I know I would not be able to concentrate on
the Job IF I did go. the way I feel just now is to tell them to stick thier job...
Stuart..