Good morning.
I don't know if I'm posting in the right section but I'm just so sad and needed to vent to some people who might understand.
Recently, I arranged to rehome a cat next week (once her vaccinations were done). This arrangement was made via this forum, so let me add that I'm not posting in order to upset the current owner, or to make a point about it, it's just that this is the only place I know where people might understand how I'm feeling.
The owner called this morning to say she had decided to keep the cat. I'm extremely sad about this, and it's made so much worse by the fact that, just a short while ago, I turned down a cat I knew and loved *because* I was getting this other cat through Purrs. Basically, I had fostered a cat for a couple of months for a charity, before our building work started, but we missed him so much when he left that we talked about formally adopting him. When I came across the deaf cat on Purrs, what with ours being an indoor home and all, I thought it was a better match. The other cat is a little tabby boy, who'd have no problem finding a home. I figured the deaf cat would have a harder time trying to find somewhere where they could adequately accommodate her needs, and the boy's circumstances were much more flexible.
So once we agreed to take the deaf cat, I told the charity that no, we wouldn't make an application for the boy, and he has since been rehomed. And of course now the deaf cat rehoming has fallen through.
I'm absolutely heartbroken. I feel crushed. Almost bereaved. I'm so upset about not getting the new cat, and now I'll never see my other boy again for no tangible reason, and I'm so angry at myself for turning him down. Ultimately, both of these cats have lovely homes now, and that's the most important thing, and I wouldn't sacrifice that for the whole world. But unfortunately it doesn't stop me crying and feeling blue, and I just needed somewhere to say that where hopefully I won't seem like a crazy person.
