Lesley, got to the later thread first re help and only saw this one later so have PM'd you as Pinkbear has suggested. Just wanted to add my support as an independent rescue and reiterate what Theresa especially has said. The only thing I would add is that as small, independent rescues, we always operate to our limits and then when other things go wrong, especially in our personal lives, it may just tip the balance and it is hard sometimes to see our way forward. We are all here for you, whatever you decide to do, and whatever you decide to do, please know that you have made a difference to so many cats and kittens. xx