Hi Joyce
I'm so sorry to hear that you lost Dusty
Having to make that final decision for our babies is the hardest thing we have to do, but he would have been so grateful to you, and will always be looking down from Rainbow Bridge over you
The pain does start to subside, this I can promise, but I don't think it will ever go away
I lost my boy at the end of July, he'd been with me for 9 years, and the feeling of loss was just terrible, I still miss Max every second of every day, but now at least I can smile about all the good times we shared, rather than cry all the time about having lost him
I think its even harder when you've been looking after a cat with an illness or special needs, as that bond becomes even closer, quoting Pav from an email she sent me when I lost Max, their needs become more important than yours, and it becomes all consuming, then suddenly, nothing
Its hard to deal with.
One thing I will promise you is that Dusty will never truly leave you, he'll always live on in your heart and soul, and he might even send you signs that he's still around, I know my Maxy has and I know without any doubt that its him
And when it comes to adopting another furbabe, when the time is right for you, go for it
You'll never replace Dusty, and nor would you want to, but the greatest tribute to a cat we've loved is to love another, and I'm sure Dusty would want your love and care to be extended to another furry
We adopted our Poot only a few weeks after Maxy left, the house felt so empty, and we learned of another FIV cat needing our help, so think it was fate
Be good to yourself
Clare
xx