I can hardly see for crying here, I made the decision to let my darling boy go this morning
He did not have a good night, he had diahorrea yesterday and this morning, messed his tray, and weed on the floor as well, he's never ever done that before, so I set him free whilst he still had the dignitiy I've always wanted him to have.
I feel like my heart has broken in two, I had to go on my own as J is away for a few days, and whilst I have no doubt whatsoever that I've done the right thing, it just hurts so very much
God Bless Max, we had 9 amazing years together, and I was blessed to have you share my life, I will never ever forget you, and I know we will meet again someday on Rainbow Bridge. Mummy and Daddy love you so very much, and although my heart broke in front of me, I hope you know that I was with you right until the very end. Please send me a rainbow sweetheart, and go find Phoebe, Boy and Mr Darcey to play with, they're new too and you can all play together
I've got to go for a bit now, I feel so sick, I need to eat but I just can't