Thankyou
I know most of us been there and know of the pain, it never get easier.I asked the vet if he puts her under fluid all night she may feel better but he said they dont have 24 hours facility and she may need oxigen and i could take her to vet24 and they monitor her there, but Phoebe was scared of strangers and i thought the stress of taking her there, also the vet tonight was her own vet he knew how to handle her i didnt want my baby to be scared. After taking the X-rays he brought her back upstairs and she just sat in a corner stearing at the wall thats what she is been doing at home and then the vet said to me this is no life , he said he thinks she is trying to die and he said she is really sick i asked him 2 days ago all the results were ok but he said he thinks its some thing in her brain causing the twitching and its too many things wrong with her, i asked him if she is in pain and he said she has no life in her whats is the point of keeping her like this, he was really nice and understanding he said if it was his pet he would let her go, i didnt want to loose her she was my baby, i dont have any family and when i lost DD i called some friends but they all said the same thing that i lost so many cats whats speciall about this one or they said get a younger cat next time so you dont have to go through this
They dont understand its not about me its about helping a cat which no one else wanted and thats what i kept telling my self in the surgury that its not about you, you have to let her go , may be i could keep her going few more weeks but i know its selfish. I got her so many new blankets and bed on Sunday in Mayhew opening day she never got to use them, and every where i look its her things.
Thanks Baggy for reassuring me, i just didnt want her to get sick or suffer when she was passing away, and thankyou every one for listening to me i am sorry if i dont make sense i cant see , have to keep wiping my glasses, she looked so beautiful after she was PTS, the vet helped me to clean her face and said she is gone with dignity
I am going to log off now and go upstairs and clean everything all her food and water is on my bed and then i am going to sit outside the foxes will come soon.
Thanks Janey and Gillian for your numbers but i cant talk right now, but thankyou. Maybe one day soon.