Its now been almost 3 weeks since my wee guy had to be put to sleep and i've been getting on with things -missing him terribly every single day - but getting on with things all the same. the past few days though, i've been really upset again every time i think about him.
When i go to bed at night i find it especially hard as there are no distractions for me, so i lie there thinking about him and feeling totally awful that he's gone.
Its still so hard and i still can't believe he was taken from me after only 9 years and all the things he survived.
I want to put a few things down here as a tribute to him. They are a little silly but they are just some of the little things I miss about him and never want to forget;
Rocky 
I will remember the last bubble bath i took when you insisted on balancing on the edge of the bath beside me and sneezing at the bubbles i piled on your head.
I will remember that little tuft of hair that stuck up in the middle of your back, no matter how many times I tried to smooth it down
I will remember your frantic little pushy paw routine and how you would be so happy to see me or have me petting you that you would actually drool.
I will remember how you would lie on my chest and stare at me, purring, till you fell asleep.
I will remember telling you ‘wash your paws’ when you would try to climb on my lap when covered in mud and how you would do just that before settling on my lap
I will remember how you would do that crazy twitching thing with your whole body when you played, jumping around frantically in your excitement.
I will remember how I called you superman when you would fall asleep with both legs stretched out straight in front of you and hanging out of your little bed.
I will remember you sitting on the tv unit at the window, knocking down photos and moving ornaments so you had room, then watching me leave and always being back just in time for me coming home.
I will remember your antics with catnip, drooling and flattening yourself to rub your whole little body on it.
I will remember how you would come racing along the street to my car sometimes when I got home from somewhere. Chatting away to me as you headed for the door by my side.
I remember how you would match me step for step as I walked up or down stairs, looking up at me the whole time.
I will remember how much you absolutely adored getting into our bed and your crazy antics when I gave in and let you in there.
I will remember you rolling around on top of the fridge no matter how hard we tried to keep you off it.
I will remember you sneaking in to sleep in the spare room wardrobe and ending up locked in, even on the day of my wedding.
I will remember how i was always turning your cat bed upside down for you so you could hide underneath, when you demanded I do so after trying to do it yourself.
I will remember dragging long blades of grass around in a circle so you could chase them until you were dizzy.
I will remember how much comfort and happiness it gave me to have you purring on my lap.
I will remember how you used to pin your brother down and insist on washing his face and ears.
I will never ever forget how strong you were. How funny you were. How utterly happy you were, even when sick or hurt. How completely devoted to me you were. So devoted that you dragged yourself home with 2 broken hips just to be with me. What a survivor you were.
I miss you so terribly and it hurts so badly not having you in my life. I loved you more than I can describe and I always will. My wee button lamb. My Rockster Boxter, my little ASBO, my Rocky-By. My baby boy.I miss you xxx
