The vet came around for nearly an hour at lunchtime, which was magic of him. He thinks that Swampy is ok for the moment and we should keep doing what we are doing, on the current meds and wait and see. He said that Swampy's suffering isn't at a stage quite yet where we can be sure, as there are clearly still moments of good, responsive behaviour (Swampy purred when I picked him up; he licked Max's ears and he wanted to eat while the vet was here). Once those go, we will be more sure. He also asked if I could cope & said that many people could not devote the nursing time as they are working - but the test is when it is done, do we look back and say we did the right thing by Swampy, or do we have regrets. He says we are between the stage of definite pts and not pts and as it's a brain problem, no-one knows if Swampy will deteriorate and how fast or maybe stabilise for a bit. As his brain's old, and he already had some dementia signs, he's not going to get dramatically better though obviously.
It must be said that little Swamp was better than he's been for some time while he was here as the vivitonin and steroids are probably peaking, he even found the tray! But his eyes are still going from side to side with the central vestibular disease which is what's making him circle and he said that we would probably know for sure, even though he's on steroids and vivitonin as Swampy would stop wanting to eat or Max would avoid him or attack him (as happened during the week), he would not be able to rest and he may forget how to use the tray or even that he needs to go, or he would circle without stopping.
I burst into tears and went to buy food and left my wallet at home! Anyhow he said that our doubts are correct right now, but warned us that neuro changes can be quick etc (which we do know). So on we go. Bless you all for listening!
Oh he said that I must try valerian at night (for Swampy) in case it helps me get a few hours rest. Old sheep that I am, I am hoping the rain drowns out the fireworks this weekend.
xx