Oh Mary,
How absolutely heartbreaking....and you seemed so close to being re-united. I just don't know what to say....so, so sad and cruel. Your love for Smudge and determination to find him never wavered and that's something you should feel very proud about.
God bless you Smudge, darling...your mum never gave up on you...you were so nearly re-united
It seems that you will have to wait just that little bit longer.
I am so very sorry Mary.....I can only think this is a test of your strength...I cannot find any other explanation that makes any sense at all.....it all seems so unfair and almost maliciously contemptuous. I feel like shaking my fists!
Thinking of you
Roz