It is only 2 weeks since she died, and I am still struggling. I am not used to feeling like this after a loss (there have been enough of those - 7 in 4 years), I dont know if it is cos we fought soo many illnesses and I expected it soo much that it seems wrong that she got through things much worse, or whether it is cos it was so close after Ginger (who I knew was goign to be hard, and made worse by the fact it was unexpected, and no time to prepare, and i only got to say bye after he went, not with him).
