My best friend of 18 years died on 31/10/07 and I am still in a world of pain.
I got Floyd when I was in a record shop 18 years ago. A bloke in there had him in a cardboard box as a kitten and was taking him to be put down because he didn't want him.
I took him home there and then and although my wife initially went nuts, it took less than 24 hours before he had become part of the family.
An extraordinary character, Floyd was my best friend and confidante and we spent many hours together putting the world to rights.
He was always by my side, slept side by side with me every night and we always had a tussle about whose head got the softest part of the pillow.
When he came into the room he would stare at me until I got out of "his" chair which, until his arrival, had been mine.
Thankfully I have many pictures and videos of him but the house seems so empty without him, although he was diabetic for most of his life so I should be thankful he lived so long.
The end came so quickly and he went downhill within hours. We had managed to save him 2 weeks earlier by putting him on rehydration for a day and he quickly returned to his usual self. The second time he did not respond to treatment and the vet advised us to put him to sleep.
It was the hardest decision I have ever made.
I am posting this as a rememberance to my "little man" as I called him, and just want to let him know that he will NEVER be forgotten.
RIP Floyd - The best friend I've ever had.
I have written this poem as it has gone some way to ease the pain I have in thinking that it was me who made the decision to end his life and maybe, just maybe, it will help others who have, or will have to, make the same decision.
WHEN IT IS TIME (Gary Smith)
When it is time for me to go,
Please do not fear, I’ll let you know.
We have been friends through rain and shine,
I am yours and you are mine.
I know you love me, I know you care,
You look after me, you are always there.
I hope you know I feel the same,
I purr at the mention of your name.
You took me in when times were bleak,
We connected though we couldn’t speak
You gave me all you had to give
A happy home, a chance to live
My life with you is full of joy
You treat me like your little boy
I wish I could tell you how I feel
I hope you know my love is real
I steal your chair, I steal your bed
I pester you till I’ve been fed
You never moan and never shout
In spite of all the rules I flout
I’m glad of all the time we’ve shared
I’m glad I found someone who cared
I’ve tried to repay you everyday
In my own peculiar way
Before I suffer let me go
It’s the greatest act of love to show
Please do not think you’ve betrayed me
By helping me pass on peacefully
Just be there like you always were
Comfort me, I will try to purr
I know it is the right thing to do
I’d do the same if I were you
So when my time comes please be strong
It is the right thing not the wrong
Please spare me from enduring pain
Be sure that we will meet again
At Rainbow Bridge I’ll wait for you
We’ll meet again as you pass through
To love each other as before
Side by side for evermore