It is a day short of a fortnight to Ginger's anniversary, and I am really struggling - never had this problem before, but I did always know he would be the hardest of all my cats to lose, he was such a special boy, and I dont think I will ever meet a cat as special and wonderful as him. And to make things even harder on myself, Ginger is dominating my thoughts, and i dont even seem to be thinking of Pebbles much, which makes me feel guilty, although it was easier with her, as she had so many illnesses, I know I did the right thing, whereas Ginger's was such a shock, and while he was only 15, he had spent 3 years on the streets. I cant even make myself feel better by thinking of all the good things, like taking him off the streets when no one else would, and getting his teeth sorted cos he could barely eat, and keeping my promise that this would be his last home. I miss him so much, and dont even feel like the same person I was this time last year at the moment. Miss you my wonderful man, I so wish you were still here with me.