Oh bless....
i once had a cat go missing,Bonnie id had her 5 yrs and went looking all over for her (including the park our garden backs on to) every night shouting her name, i was 8 mth pregnant at the time with our second child and i got a call from a lady from some posters id put round saying shed seen the cat on the back of some local shops,..... big high metal gate... barbed wire....me over the top with my tummy!...if it was her i was getting her back!
anyway... she wasnt to be seen, i returned home heart broken.
three weeks later my partner replaced some old fence from the bottom of the garden and they found her body behind the fence decomposing.... it was def her tho as the collar was intact and some fur was recognisable....
i was devastated but in the end it brought me closure of some kind to know she wasnt hurting,...but the thought of her being so close and me not knowing, but thats the way our independent friends seem to want it...they go off when somethings wrong sometimes.
years later im in the same position again with sally missing since aug 1st
my thoughts are with you that if it is your cat, you can find some peace,
lots of love
Claire+