In the very sad aftermath, and all the sorrow and mixed emotions and not knowing how to deal with the situation, I want you all to know how GRATEFUL I am (we are!) for the endless support we have had from you guys.
As some of you might know already, I was never a cat person (Robin pointed out today that I had never mentioned 'cat' before Jameson came into our lives), but Jameson really did change my life in so many different way. Same goes for Robin, he has had cats all of his life - about 20 of them growing up as a child, til he left home, until now - his parents still have cats. He says that although all of their cats were special in their own ways, he had NEVER come across a cat with so much personality, character, passion & energy as Jameson.
Ok, I'm going off the subject here, I blame it on the wine.. first glass of wine in a long time (so nice to relax on the sofa finally, and able to reflect on things)
All I really wanted to say is, I know we don't know each other purrsonally, but, it feels as if we do, and especially right now I feel like I have been brought closer to so many of you, you have been a huge support to us in the past few days, the love we feel is enormous. I am amazed at how much we can support each other without even knowing each other - that proves that it doesn't matter who we are, what we look like, the colour of our skin, our religion, political views, our sexuality.. what brings us together is the love for our cats, pets - animals. That says it all about us people, really..! Ok - we're still mad cat ladies/gentlemen, and quite rightly so!! I rather be a slightly crazy but thoughtful animal lover than some violent football hooligan with no morals or values!
So, once again: thank you. From the bottom of our hearts, from the depths of our soul. The rest of this journey is not going to be easy, what with us missing our Jameson every second of the day, but it helps knowing people understands and are there for us..
Some good news amongst the bad; today was the first time I 'properly' went out in the ''Real World'' (gosh I hated it; rush hour and annoyed, stressed people!) but I landed myself a job I really needed (& wanted.. although I need it more than I want it!). I will be working at Harrods, at the Makeup & Beauty department leading up to christmas, maybe longer.
Also, although it feels strange talking about it, a lot of friends & family are urging us to get another cat. It felt totally weird first, I couldn't imagine anything other than my Jamie Boy. Then eventually, through hours of talks through the tears and attempts to get through the pain, me and Robin started talking about getting 2 kittens (from same litter) and to keep them INDOORS. It is so quiet here, and empty, and we miss Jameson's energy and the sheer joy he brought to our household. Although I still feel (and always will) that cats should get to go outdoors, we have both learned (the hard way) that it really depends on where you live and the circumstances - that didn't mean Jameson lived his life in vain, it just means we will be more selfish in the future incase we can't provide cats with a SAFE outdoors. (away from roads). It feels weird talking about it, but it wouldnt be us replacing Jameson, just continuing giving our love to other cats in need.
I'm rambling again and should log-out and get some sleep. I'm pleased to say I've had a day with a few good laughs from the stomach, and had 3 meals today (breakfast, lunch and dinner), which is the first time since Thursday, when I completely lost my appetite. I feel slightly human again, which is a nice feeling.
Just put the flowers I recieved from you guys on his grave... had a drink in his honor and put the candles out - they had been lit all day thru the rain. Thanks Helen for the poem x
Anytime ANYONE of you is looking for support of some kind, any kind... we are right here...
xx
