Sorry you are having such a bad week Angie - have some chocolate or alcohol, whichever is your vice, it does sound like you need a bit of 'me time' to recharge and come back fighting fit again, I hope you can, as there will be a lot of cats worse off if you do jack. I always find looking at pics of my ex-fosters, both here and in their new homes works well if I am having a bad day.