Thanks for the lovely comments, house has felt odd today, I have no cats that eat downstairs anymore, so wondered why I was going down this morning!! And no cats that want to go outside either. I had to put her feelings before mine, I think if you aren't prepared to do that, you shouldn't have pets, as if you can't, they will suffer, and I have seen that happen with other people's pets, and know jsut how lucky mine are that I Can do that. Have thrown myself into rescue work today, supposedly fundraised, but really just gave them some money, and had a drink and a chat!! I do have a happy post on Mon, and thinkign about that makes me realise why I do what I do, regardless of the heartache at times - that is always overpowered by the knowledge that I gave them a home that others wouldnt, at the time of their life when they deserve it, and I just wish I could help more, but think I am nearly in double figures with oldies.