Day 124 ten weeks on meds. Charlie has been awful. He has been anxious, wary of me, avoiding me like I have the plague, disinterested in anything around him, noise reactive and skitzy. So Sarah and I discussed it and she has increased his meds from 0.4ml daily to 0.5ml daily for one week, .06ml daily for one week and then up to .07 ml. She said I should notice fast improvement. He had his first upped dose on Tues and he was remarkable and wonderful and lovely old Charlie on Wed. Then on Thu morning when I got up he had reverted back to how he was before and has, so far, stayed that way although he has been slightly more sociable and curious today and has been chasing a butterfly whilst I have been tidying the garden. It is very depressing and upsetting to see him so miserable and unhappy. He will sit just hunched up with wide eyes and ears pricking constantly.
I took him to the vet on THu cos he looked a bit bloated and with him hunching up all the time I thought he might be uncomfortable or worse. Our usual vet Irene was off so we had a locum lady called Kim. She spent about five minutes really feeling round his tummy etc and pronounced him FAT. SO he has to have r/d which I have to start to introduce into his food over the next month. She has written down how much of each as he has to have some biccies in his puzzle feeder as part of his treatment plan.
So things not good really. Of course my anxiety levels are through the roof and I know this is probably part of the reason he doesn't feel comfortable around me, my adrenaline is constantly pumping. I have taken a beta blocker today which I haven't done for a long long time as they can make me dizzy but it is not good for either of us to constantly be surrounded by anxious feelings.
I have had my MRI scan on Monday and will have my nerve diagnostics next Wed. Wish the news on the Charlie front was happier. I despair we will ever get this sorted out sometimes. I did ask Sarah if she was confident we could sort him and she said she is.
Hope everyone here is well.
Love xxxxx
thanks for caring about us