Sorry but I am well and truly broken, vet rang me to take kitten at 12.15 today Babe was approx 5-6 weeks old and emaciated and very lethargic but vet thought she stood a good chance with me, from the minute I got her home I realised something wasnt right and kept saying to OH could vet have missed something. I have given my all to Babe this afternoon and kept wondering could she be brain damaged, syringe fed her at 4 and left her sleeping in a little bed, flew to shops at 430 back home and checked at 5,she had lifted herself from her bed and died alone, I just cant take this heartache anymore,have phoned vet and had long talk to her and it turns out she suspected she may have taken a knock to the head but couldnt be sure the nurse didnt mention it when handing her over, I am also scared witless that it may have been a killer virus, got to go and put her lifeless little body in my freezer now and vet will ring when she gets a call out for me to take body in.
Poor poor Babe you desrved better